May 28, 2009

FanimeCon 2009: Enter The Madtyger

Monday, 05.25.09
Location: 282 Almaden Blvd - San Jose, California
Time: 0700

We woke up early once again, got ready, and did a double check of the room to make sure we didn't leave anything behind. We ended up getting a trolley to take all the bags down since there were so many. After loading up and checking out, we hit the road for home.

Monday, 05.25.09
Location: Back home in Northern California

Time: 1402

We made great time and got home quickly. We didn't hit any traffic though we did see a lot of cop cars on the road pulling over speeding vacationers. We told our adventures to my father as we did a sort of "show and tell" of all the stuff we got. Our trip to FanimeCon 2009 was over and what was left was a huge pile of stuff to put away!

Thursday, 05.28.09
Location: Somewhere in Northern California
Time: 1421

It's been exactly a week since I left for my trip to San Jose and I still feel like I'm moving every time I sit down. I ended up sleeping in to around 4:00 p.m. on Tuesday after I got back. Ah, that was so nice. I still have one big bag to unpack and put away. With all the Anime that I picked up, I managed to fill another shelf of my media rack. Only two shelves left to fill in my third media rack and then I'll have to get another bookshelf or something. The clothes are another story. I ended up getting some plastic tubs to put my "summer" clothes in and store under my bed, that way I have more room for all the shirts that I picked up this trip.

Thursday, 05.28.09
Location: Somewhere in Northern California
Time: 1425


I finally got all the groceries put away as well. I haven't put any of the soda in the fridge yet but I'll do that soon . . . when I feel like it. I've already tried out the Japanese hot cakes, they taste exactly the same as American pancakes. I don't know what I was expecting, maybe I'll have to eat them Onomiyaki style to see a difference. My dog loved his new cow but he hasn't tried the beer yet. My father really liked his gifts too. And I'm not quite sure where my mother put all of her new clothes, but somehow they all fit in her closet.


Thursday, 05.28.09
Location: Somewhere in Northern California
Time: 1429

I'm not quite sure how much money I spent in total on this trip. I'd been saving for almost a year and a half and it was well worth it. Surprisingly enough I ended up with $1000 left over. With it, I was able to catch up on my PSN Add-Ons that I had been skipping on for the past several months as well as finishing up all my birthday/Christmas presents I had to buy for friends and family. I even had enough left over to pick up the Anime and Manga that I couldn't find at Fanime. I don't think I'll be going back next year, I can only handle every other year. But I look forward to 2011 and more adventures in the land of Otakudom. Maybe by then, I will have converted a few of my friends into Otakus and I can take them down with me. I guess I better start saving again!

FanimeCon 2009: Enter The Gizmodo

Sunday, 05.24.09
Location: 201 S Market St - San Jose, California
Time: 1022

Once again, my mother and I found ourselves at the Tech Museum trying to catch an IMAX show. This time though, we did get in. I love IMAX, it's amazing to see and San Jose has one of the best screens in the world. Why? Because unlike most IMAX screens, the one in the Tech Museum is a dome. The screen is so large that it literally covers all of your peripheral vision. We ended up watching two shows there. The first was all about space, narrated by the original Spock, it was a great visual presentation. The second was about the Grand Canyon and was just as impressive on the super uber big screen.

Sunday, 05.24.09
Location: 255 Almaden St - San Jose, California
Time: 1324

After the two shows, we grabbed a quick bite to eat and then walked back towards the convention center. We stopped to take a few shots of the Center for Performing Arts. In 2007 we were able to go inside and watch the premiere of Play! A Video Game Symphony. Both the building and the music were impressive.

Sunday, 05.24.09
Location: 150 W San Carlos St - San Jose, California
Time: 1509


When we got back to Fanime, I took a few more shots of the cosplayers that filled the front of the convention center. By this time though I was so sick and tired of seeing cat ears, pink hair, and giant swords that I kind of lost the enthusiasm that I had before. It didn't help that the dominatrix/bondage cosplayers had showed up either. Mixed with horrible B.O., I was getting tired of the convention.

Sunday, 05.24.09
Location: 150 W San Carlos St - San Jose, California
Time: 1534

After escaping the endless lines of "free hugs" people, I made my way to the dealers' room one last time. Determined to spend the remaining money, I picked up some more gashapon, plushies, and hats - which left me with one dollar left. I ended up buying a Starburst at the vending machine just to get rid of it. Once again, I had to pass the rows and rows of people offering free hugs to escape the convention and get back to the real world. As I ducked and dodged my way past throngs of people, I couldn't help but notice all the geeky 30 year old guys getting free hugs from all the cute girls . . . there is something really sad and wrong about all that.

Sunday, 05.24.09
Location: 695 N 5th St - San Jose, California
Time: 1724

We ate dinner at an Asian fast food joint called Happi House. It was great, rather than burgers and fries, they serve Teriyaki meat and veggies. Good stuff, nothing like traditional fast food. After dinner it was time to collapse back at the hotel. I don't know how many miles we walked during the entire weekend, but I'm sure it had to be a lot. After a couple of hours just relaxing, we staged all the bags so we could just take them out in the morning. It came out to 13 bags (including one huge duffel bag), not including all the luggage we had come down with. Tomorrow's trip to the car was going to be a long one.

FanimeCon 2009: Enter The Otaku

Saturday, 05.23.09
Location: 150 W San Carlos St - San Jose, California
Time: 0925

Saturday was going to be our biggest day at the convention. There was Anime to watch, the Artists' Alley would be in full swing, and I was going to spend the biggest amount of money at the dealers' room. first though was to watch some of the newest Anime to be released here in the States as well as check out what was currently airing in Japan. The first one we saw was Iria: Zeiram the Animation about a female bounty hunter trying to kill an unstoppable monster. Nice 80s style sci-fi, Anime at its best. Next we hit K-On, mostly on accident since we were a bit early for the Anime that I really wanted to see. K-On followed the high school lives of four girls trying to start a band club at school. There was the shy bass player, the fan service keyboard player, the ditsy guitarist, the bossy drummer, and the ex-goth/death metal singer as their advisor. It was very funny and very moe . . . very. The next Anime was the main event though - Valkyria Chronicles! Everything you'd expect from the show, great art, nice CGI action, and a story that was very close to the video game. I can't wait to see an official U.S. release on this one.

Saturday, 05.23.09
Location: 150 W San Carlos St - San Jose, California
Time: 1106

After eating an $11 muffin, we headed out to the dealers' room . . . where I'd be dropping some serious cash. My surveillance trip on Friday helped me find the best deals and limit my time searching for what I wanted. First stop was the Medial Blasters booth, the only actual distributor that showed up to Fanime, I love them! For one they are cheap, even cheaper than online stores. I also love how the guys there actually watch Anime and old school Anime at that. In addition to the two Voltron Anime I picked up on Friday - I also grabbed the complete set of GoLion (the uncut version of Voltron), the complete set of Tekkaman Blade, Ah! My Goddess season 1, the first three volumes of Moribito, the complete set of Iria, the complete set of Teknoman, and the complete set of Ramen Fighter Miki! Since I spent so much at one time, they threw in the live action Iria movie for free and said I was their best customer that day. After dropping off the box of Anime at the table my mother was at, I headed to one of the other dealers. There I picked up the complete set of Yu Yu Hakusho and the complete set of Yawara. All this shopping made me hungry, so off to Nihonmachi!

Saturday, 05.23.09
Location: 240 Jackson St - San Jose, California
Time: 1521

We hit Nijiya Market in JapanTown to pick up some groceries we had ordered the week before. A case of Ramune (a kind of soda), a case of Calipco (a kind of fruit soft drink), and some other snacks were what we picked up. After we ate an ice cream sandwich (you cannot beat Japanese ice cream!), we went over to Nikaku to try and find a Sukiyaki pot. We were able to find one for a reasonable price as well as some other items.

Saturday, 05.23.09
Location: 240 Jackson St - San Jose, California
Time: 1713

We stayed in Nihonmachi for dinner, eating at a sushi bar. It was great! We had donburi, it was amazing. I could eat that stuff every day and never get tired of it. Afterwards, we went back to the hotel to drop off the groceries and go back to FanimeCon. Once again, we seemed to have some bad timing, a local high school was having their prom at the hotel we were staying at. After circling the parking garage for 20 minutes (mind you the parking lot was a four story one) we finally found a place at the very top of the lot. As we unloaded the stuff and waited for all the high schoolers to load into the elevator, I snapped a quick shot of the Adobe building across the street from us. After all the work to just get into the hotel, we decided to call it a night.

FanimeCon 2009: Enter The Shopper

Friday 05.22.09
Location: 201 S Market St - San Jose, California
Time: 0931

The next morning we went over to the Tech Museum to see if we could catch an IMAX show. We ended up having bad timing since there was a school field trip there and all the shows were sold out. I was able to pick up a few gifts for my friends as well as a keychain for myself. Since we had some extra time before the dealers' room at the convention opened, we decided to hit the mall!

Friday 05.22.09
Location: 2855 Stevens Creek Blvd - San Jose, California
Time: 1020


The mall . . . over 250 stores on two floors. We were only supposed to spend about three hours there, ha! That was not the case. The first place we hit was Macy's to look for some clothes for my mother. We were able to get about a dozen things for her. Some shirts, pants, and full outfits. Next was down to Sanrio, the home of Hello Kitty stuff. I've been collecting that stuff since I lived in Japan and I love to keep adding to my collection. We probably went a little over board there since we came out with two full bags of stuff! After that it was over to SonyStyle . . . my version of heaven on earth. I spent about an hour in there even though I knew exactly what I wanted. A new video MP3 player as well as the new AC Adaptor for the PS3 controller/mic. We ate lunch at the food court, a Japanese place that I forget the name of. This time it was the noise level mixed with a soft spoken cashier and a dash of accent that ended with me ordering something completely different than what I wanted. It was still good though, Teriyaki chicken with white rice and grilled veggies.

Friday 05.22.09
Location: 2855 Stevens Creek Blvd - San Jose, California
Time: 1302

With our time up, we decided to skip some of the other plans we had and continued our excursion through the mall. We found a Coldwater Creek for my mother and bought a few more shirts there. On to the GAP to pick up some jeans and socks for me. Next a doggie boutique to get a prize for Monty. He would have been very upset if I didn't get him something. I came out with a squeaky cow toy and some doggie beer - and a wallet $32 lighter. After that it was up to Hot Topic to pick up a Power Rangers shirt for me and some other stuff. By this time, we had around 8 shopping bags so we called it quits and went back to the hotel.

Friday 05.22.09
Location: 150 W San Carlos St - San Jose, California
Time: 1629


After dropping off the goods from the mall at the hotel, we walked over to the convention center. By this time, the cosplayers were coming out in full force. With my trusty Sony Alpha-200 DSLR camera in hand, I sat my mother down at the dealers' room and headed to the cosplay gallery in front of the convention center. Having to dodge a few giant swords, guns, and a pair of demon wings - I made it in one piece, ready to take some crazy photos. Cosplayers from every Anime, video game, and movie you could think of were there. I saw at least 24 Narutos, 4 Solid Snakes, 2 Pikachus, 3 Spocks, 2 Jedi, and way too many people in chains. Also, the picture down below, the one with the purple hair is a guy . . . there were so many crossplayers, I wanted to scratch out my eyes towards the end of it! Not only that, I saw so many things I shouldn't have . . . people need to wear more clothes or at least test out if you can move around well enough without flashing people before hand.

Friday 05.22.09
Location: 150 W San Carlos St - San Jose, California
Time: 1658

Once I felt that I had enough pictures, or at least enough scary images burned into my brain, I headed into the convention center to the dealers' room . . . my true destination. I enjoy watching Anime, it's fun to see all the cosplayers, but for me shopping is the true goal of coming to Fanime. With cash to burn and empty bags to fill, I set out to find those golden gems hidden in the jungle that is the dealers' room. It is truly a battle of prices, wills, and love for something that makes up the vicious vibe of the dealers' room. I'm not exaggerating either, it is pure war there! Where the weak will come out empty handed and the strong will get all the good stuff. I was careful not to waste money on the common goods but to focus on the specialty items that are hard to find. Gashapon, rare plushies, and a few pins was what I ended up buying the first day the dealers' room was open. I also picked up my missing volumes of Voltron.

Friday 05.22.09
Location: 150 W San Carlos St - San Jose, California
Time: 1754

Next was the Artists' Alley . . . which I shouldn't have gone to. Since it was only the first day, a lot of people hadn't shown up yet. Coupled with some very pathetic looking artists all alone, once you make eye contact, the guilt of walking away without buying something is too much. I ended up buying a Lucky Star drawing, Syaoran bookmark, and a bag completely out of guilt.

Friday 05.22.09
Location: 3380 El Camino Real - Santa Clara, California
Time: 1823

After checking in to see how the table top gaming was going and dropping off the goods at the hotel, we headed out to dinner at our favorite place - Mongolian BBQ! Driving out to Santa Clara only took about ten minutes and we soon saw the restaurant. From the outside it looks like a dive, but it's actually some of the best Mongolian you can get in the San Jose area. Filling up on some great BBQ, we went back to the hotel to call it a night and prepare for the biggest day at the con!

FanimeCon 2009: Enter The Gamer

Thursday, 05.21.09
Location: Somewhere in Northern California
Time: 0532

I was abruptly awoken from my deep sleep with Kingdom of Rust blaring from my alarm clock. My laptop, PSP, DLSR camera, Cyber Shot camera, charger bag, messenger bag, and my suitcase were all already loaded into the car the night before. All that was left was for my mother and I to get into the car and start our six hour drive down to San Jose, California. Wiping the sleep from my eyes and humming Kingdom of Rust to myself, I got ready. Once I was fully awake, the excitement started to build. My destination was FanimeCon 2009 where the die hard Otaku, crazy Cosplayers, and fanboyish Gamers congregated for the largest Anime convention in Northern California. Spanning over Memorial Day weekend, roughly 20,000 attendees go to FanimeCon to watch Anime, spend 5 million dollars, and show off their insane cosplay skills. Unlike my trip to the 2007 convention, I was a seasoned congoer this time around. More money, more bags, and a schedule would help me make the most out of this trip. I was prepared and ready to attack FanimeCon 2009!

Thursday, 05.21.09
Location: Hwy 101 South - Santa Rosa, California
Time: 1011

Construction . . . I thought California is supposed to be in a budget crisis, yet everywhere we go there is new construction going on. Construction . . . construction means traffic . . . construction means I'm going to be staring at these cows for a while. *Sigh*

Thursday, 05.21.09
Location: Interstate 280 & Stevens Creek Blvd - San Jose, California
Time: 1227

Finally! We have reached San Jose! Stevens Creek Blvd, home to the Westfield Valley Fair Mall, Santana Row, and our first stop on this trip - the Men's Warehouse. The dress shirts and slacks that we picked up for my father on our last trip down to San Jose fit so well that decided to pick up a few more pair on this trip. After picking up that stuff, it was lunch time.

Thursday, 05.21.09
Location: 3158 Stevens Creek Blvd - San Jose, California
Time: 1255

Arby's! I spotted an Arby's when we were at the Men's Warehouse, so my mother and I decided to eat their for lunch. I haven't eaten at an Arby's since I was 12 so it was quite a throwback to see one. If you haven't been to one, their specialty is a great hot roast beef sandwich, which is what I ordered. But since my eyes are kind of bad, I ended up ordering the wrong number and instead of ordering a regular roast beef I ordered the triple sized one. It was good though, even though I couldn't eat it all.

Thursday, 05.21.09
Location: 282 Almaden Blvd - San Jose, California
Time: 1328

After enjoying a relaxing lunch, we checked into the Crowne Plaza Hotel and unloaded all of our luggage. Room 205 was a great room, six pillows to a bed, a computer desk, a widescreen TV, and a not so great view of the rooftop. The convention center was just across the street, the Tech Museum was behind it, and their were a few restaurants in walking distance. It was the perfect location to make our headquarters!

Thursday, 05.21.209
Location: 525 W Santa Clara St - San Jose, California
Time: 1400

After taking some time to unpack and relax a bit, we headed over to the Shark Tank. Though my beloved team's season is over, the store there stays open all year. Once inside, I was able to shop in peace since my mother and I were the only ones in the store. During game nights, they cram the maximum people they can into the store, 100 fans trying to get the items they want before the game starts. It becomes very hectic, especially when you are trying to find clothes in your size. Luckily, I didn't have any problems finding my size this time. I was able to pick up a teal hoodie, black sweatshirt, and a customized jersey!

Thursday, 05.21.209
Location: 1342 Naglee Ave - San Jose, California
Time: 1422


Next stop was the Rosicrucian Egyptian Museum and Planetarium. Before entering the museum, we explored the outer gardens. Beautiful rose bushes, fountains, and a statue of Augustus Caesar decorated the gardens. Once inside, we explored the three areas the museum offered - Death, Life, and Royalty. The Death area was filled with models and artifacts from ancient tombs. The Life area had tools and weapons made of bronze and other materials. The Royalty area had jewelry and household items that only the richest men could own. A Sarcophagus and Canopic Jars were the highlights for me. At the gift store I picked up a keychain for myself, a magnet for my mother, and an Anubis statue for my father. Being a mortician himself, my father has a special connection to Anubis. Unfortunately, my father wasn't able to come on this trip so I hope that we'll be able to go back to the Rosicrucian on one of our annual hockey trips.

Thursday, 05.21.209
Location: 150 W San Carlos St - San Jose, California
Time: 1802

After returning to the hotel to drop off our souvenirs, we headed over to the McEnery Convention Center to register for FanimeCon 2009. Registration was supposed to have already started but poor planning seemed to put them behind schedule. As we crossed the street to the convention center, you could already see signs that the convention was about to start. Street banners hung from the street lights advertising the convention as well as a random cosplayer here and there. You could also find cars decorated with "Fanime or Bust" in the parking lots around downtown San Jose. After waiting in line for over an hour, we were finally able to register and receive our convention badges.

Thursday, 05.21.209
Location: 282 Almaden Blvd - San Jose, California
Time: 2001

Once registered we went back to the hotel to get dinner and then headed up to the room to get a good night's sleep. Tomorrow would be even busier as the convention got into the full swing of things and we'd need all the rest we could get.

May 14, 2009

Blurring The Lines Of Reality

Video games have always given us a way to explore the unknown, the non-existent, and the morally grey. Some argue that the exposure to things that aren't necessarily morally right or correct degrade our society and influence young people in a negative way. I don't think video games should be used as a scape goat for all of the social problems we face today, but some of the arguments that have been made against video games (especially violent video games) you can't ignore. I'm not here to get into another debate about this topic but I can't help to look back at how video games have affected my everyday life. What happens when the lines separating the virtual world start to blur into the real world?

I walk into the hotel lobby. It's late afternoon and the sun is glinting through the closed shades. I take a quick scan of the area. Four lamps with shades, breakable. Ten florescent overhead lights, breakable. Three emergency lights over each entrance, unbreakable.

I've always loved Tom Clancy and his writings. Both thought provoking and somewhat scary, I love how he blends espionage with political intrigue. His video games aren't that bad either. My first experience with his video games came from Splinter Cell, which happens to be one of my favorite games of all-time. I've played through Splinter Cell and the following two iterations (I don't like Double Agent as much as I do the original trilogy) quite a bit, trying out new techniques and strategies along the way. One key element in all the games is a simple tactic of shooting out the lights, whether you are in an outside garden or inside a hotel. Shooting out the lights is one of the best ways to find cover and conceal yourself quickly.

I didn't notice it at first. I'd been playing the first game about a month or so when I walked into work and counted how many lights there were and which ones could be broken. It became second nature in the game to scan for lights that I started to do it in real life. I still do it too, even though I haven't played a Splinter Cell game in a while. Though I haven't tried to break or shoot any of the lights, I still find it kind of funny how a simple habit in a game has blurred over into the real world.

I enter the theater and proceed up to the balcony area. I take my seat, I know the show is about to start soon. I hear a door shut and I jump. Which door? East side of the hall or West side?

Another Tom Clancy game that I love even more than Splinter Cell is Rainbow Six Vegas. You cannot beat the tactical elements of this game. From using suppressors to conceal muzzle flash to always being conscious of where your shadow is. The game is designed with strategy in mind. That being said, there is one simple tactic that many players overlook. Doors. Mainly shutting them after you've entered a room. Why even bother with this seemingly menial task? Because doors creak when they open and terrorists can't walk through walls. One of the most stressful levels I have ever played in a game is Dante's Theater. A three-story opera house with grand stair cases and many, many doors.

I usually play Rainbow as a two-person co-op team so being flanked is always a worry but it's usually fine. My partner and I know how to burn through a level quickly and efficiently. Dante's Theater is a totally different story. Our strategy was simple, I take one floor while my partner sweeps the floor above me, with both of us starting on opposite sides. It worked, for the most part. And then the doors started to open and close. The echo alone in the place made it hard to figure out where the terrorists were coming from. It didn't help that you were practically alone. They would appear out of thin air and kill you, from behind or from the front, it didn't matter they still got you. My partner and I even killed each other once in a while out of shear paranoia. To this day, theaters and creaking doors send a shiver up my spine and have me wondering, Will they come from the front or from the back?

I should buy two, one to save and one to use. But what happens if I use the one and need another? I should get three then, one to use, one for back up, and the other to save. What if I have to lend it to someone? Maybe four should be enough . . .

I have a pretty mild case of OCD. Video games don't always help that, especially RPGs. Most people peg me as a RPGer, which I am, I just don't play them because it's too hard for me too. You see, I can't use items in a game, moreover, I have to hoard items in a game. Oblivion is a great example of that. I had four of every weapon, armor, and cloth you could find. I had over one hundred potions of each kind yet I used magic to heal myself and cure any illness. And don't ask about the treasure, don't even ask.

My other two examples were of habits I picked up in video games showing their faces in the real world. This one is the opposite. My real world OCD nature crossing the line over to video games. It's an annoying habit (or should I say tick) that stops me from playing a genre I usually would enjoy. You can also see it in almost every game I play. With shooters I have to reload after every kill, which can be a bit dangerous at times. Platformers, I will obsessively keep my currency at an even number. Music games, I have to wear a hat . . . HAVE to.

I wonder sometimes what effects playing video games has on me when I get paranoid over a door creaking open or trying to figure out if a bullet can penetrate the wall I'm standing next to. I also think of the other things I've learned from video games, like how to survive the zombie apocalypse. All joking aside, video games are just a fun way to explore what is un-explorable otherwise. They shouldn't be taken too serious and enjoyed. I find that even when the lines blur and both worlds collide, I can keep my head and figure what which is real and which isn't. Wait, is that guy infected?

May 13, 2009

Plugged Or Unplugged?

I'm a Gizmodo by all definitions. I love electronics, gadgets, and gizmos. If you ever lose me in a shopping mall or department store, you'll likely find me in the electronics section perusing the latest tech goodness. I love knowing (and having if I can afford it) all about the latest tech and how it keeps expanding into new territories. But there is one area that I don't like technology entering and that is the world of musical instruments.

I'm old school when it comes to my musical instruments. My piano technician doesn't use any special equipment to tune the piano, it's all done by ear with the help of a tuning fork. As for performances, I always prefer to use an acoustic piano (even if it's out of tune) over a digital one. So, it's a bit odd for me trying to research and figure out what digital piano I want to pick up.

I'm definitely not going back on my viewpoint that acoustic is better, but in some scenarios, digital just makes sense. It's great that they don't have to be tuned (it gets quite expensive), they are portable, and it's easy to record music from them. That's the main reason why I want to pick up a digital piano, to record from it. I don't think I could or ever would replace my acoustic instruments for digital ones. Even with all the pain and hassles they come with, there is something special in the sound and music that acoustic instruments create. I've always thought that fifty percent of performing well came from the instrument you use. I've heard great performances on poor instruments and poor instruments on great performances. And in both instances I could tell the quality of the performer as well as the instrument. Both matter greatly, which is something people tend to forget.

As I shop around online and at various music stores, I wonder if the age of acoustic instruments is coming to a close, or at least no longer the majority. They said that the Internet wouldn't kill other media outlets like newspapers, yet more and more newspapers are going to an online format only. eBooks are all over the place with the local Borders even selling a wide selection of them rather than bringing in paperbacks. And who thought that your entire music collection would be stored on some hard drive rather than proudly displayed on a shelf. I for one will always hold onto my acoustic roots. Even if it drives me nuts when a key starts to click or some of the keys get out of tune, that's what makes it my instrument and my music.

May 12, 2009

Falling Short Once Again

Playoff hockey is still going on right now. Round 2 looks to be wrapping up with most of the series going to a seventh must win game for every team. Yet, in my eyes, hockey is over for this season. I've already dusted off my "get through the summer without hockey" movies like Miracle and Disney's Mighty Ducks series (which I think I might burn now) as well as pulling out NHL 2k7 and the other hockey games I have. Why have I done this? Because on Monday April 27, 2009 at approximately 10:00 p.m. the San Jose Sharks 2008-2009 season ended. It was game 6 of the first round where the Sharks fell 4-1 at the hands of the Anaheim Ducks (Yes, the Ducks were originally founded by Disney and their name was based on the movies.).

I should be used to this by now. The Sharks have gone to the playoffs five times in a row and have exited early five times in a row as well. I should be used to this by now . . . I really should. But the reason why I took so long to write about my beloved Team Teal's defeat is because I'm not. I'm not used to losing, especially this season. Considering that I have banners, flags, and posters plastered around my house speaks as a testament to my hardcore fandom and dedication to my team. I have three lucky hats, eight t-shirts, two sweatshirts, and even socks that are teal. I didn't even miss one game this entire season, not one of the 82 regular season games and the 6 playoff games. But I should be used to this by now. Five years as a dedicated Sharks fan, two years tracking their progress, and two year of absolutely loathing them (I was originally a Colorado Avalanche fan) and I'm still not used to this - early exists, squashed hopes, and promises that have never been fulfilled. I don't even know where to begin voicing my frustrations about the Sharks' playoff performance. I still feel like ripping the banner that hangs on my bedroom door, then I think how much I paid for it.

So, why am I so upset at this year's loss? There are some really key reasons why this playoff loss feels so much worse than years before. It really all started with the game 6, second round loss the Sharks suffered against the Dallas Stars in the 2007-2008 playoffs. Yes, last season's playoffs. Once again, the Sharks were one of the best teams in the league, holding onto the number 2 record in the regular season. As second best in the league and seeded second in the Western Conference, the Sharks were considered contenders for the Stanley Cup. Just contenders though, not favorites, why? Because the Sharks have a very poor playoff record, which is odd considering they have always been one of the higher echelon teams in the NHL.

The loss was upsetting, but GM Doug Wilson (who has an amazing hockey mind and business talent) promised that things would change and change drastically. Fast forward to the beginning of the 2008-2009 season. The Sharks now have an entirely new coaching staff, cutting some old faces and familiar players for a new blue-line capable of some seriously wicked offense as well as defense presence. The Sharks looked like a totally new animal, blazing to an amazing start, breaking records along the way, and capturing a league best home record. The extreme changes seemed to have re-ignited the Sharks, turning them into an amazingly powerful team to be feared.

As the post-season approached, the Sharks seemed to waver a bit. Many of the top players hit a scoring slump, losses increased, and injuries plagued the Sharks. Yet they still managed to roll into the post-season with a league best point total and home wins, earning them the President's Trophy. When it was time to see who the Sharks first round opponent would be, the draw of the Anaheim Ducks seemed to be a match made in heaven or maybe it was hell. The Sharks and Ducks have always had a vicious rivalry. What can you expect when you pit SoCal against NorCal. In every sport it's like this and hockey is no different. The setup almost seemed to picture perfect, and it was just exactly that.

I have to give the Ducks credit for knocking off the Sharks. Unlike the Sharks, the Ducks are very successful in the playoffs and even have a Stanley Cup of their own, proving that California teams can beat the best in the league. Right now, they are even giving the defending champion Red Wings all they can handle in a round 2 series. The thing that bothers me most about the loss that the Sharks suffered was that they never seemed to put in a full 60 minute effort. The Ducks are good, but I know the Sharks are better if they play that way. But they didn't, they didn't seem to play at all. This is why the Sharks are never considered a serious favorite for the Cup. They choke in the playoffs. It's as simple as that, they choke. The best players in the regular season seem to turn into the walking dead in playoff games. It's bad when you watch a game and you never hear the announcer say the names Thornton (the top point and assist man on the Sharks), Marleau (the Captain and sniper of the team), and other top players. It's worse when you hear on every goal that the Ducks score, "Nabokov should have had that one."

So the question now is this, what's next? Who do you cut this time around? The captain? The goalie? Most of the additions were only signed to a one-year contract, so some of the best parts of the Sharks team might not even be back next season. Plus, three or four players are looking at retirement as well. I'd hate to see someone like JR go out this way though. My worry is that if they lose and cut too many of their top people they might turn out like my Colorado Avalanche. A skeleton of a team that can't even make it to the playoffs let alone win there. But something has to give. Making so many changes and going that far just to fall short . . . very short. Something has to change and I know Doug Wilson won't hesitate to change whatever he sees fit.

As round 2 of the 2008-2009 Stanley Cup playoffs wraps up, for me hockey is already done for. I don't like (actually I hate) any of the teams that are left so it's time for me to switch to Soccer and Lacrosse, two months earlier than I expected I would. I find that as I try to forget this awful season and gain some enthusiasm for next year, I am still reminded of what could have been. In EA's new sports center at PlayStation's Home lies banners and posters depicting a team in teal with Lord Stanley's Cup. It seems like this season's unfulfilled dreams and shortcomings will haunt me and the Sharks until they can finally put everything to rest and prove that they have what it takes to go all the way.